For single use only

(Inside joke: there's a free sample of lubricant and a small sex toy with my favourite magazine this week, and on the package it says: FOR SINGLE USE ONLY. Well, I've tried that, but these silicone penis rings work better if you let your man play along you know...)
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I just noticed: I'm not single anymore.

This may sound absolutely insane, and I meen no disrespect whatsoever to my hubbie (and he knows that, don't you sweety ;p) - but my mind sometimes forgets being married and having a son. It's really strange, when people talk about "married women with kids", I never once have felt like, oh wait, that's me!

A couple of days ago I was talking to a friend I hadn't heard in a while, and he was asking about my life on the Married Side. He was surprised I was so happy with being "tied down" as he would call it. I never, ever feel like I'm being tied down whatsoever, "ik kan mn pollekes kussen" as we say here in Antwerp (something like... I can really count my blessings) with a guy like mine. Not many married women with a baby can say they work 40 hrs a week while their husband is a stay-at-home-dad for a couple of months, right? Apparently, not many people understand, but then again, me & my husband are one special couple.

Still, as I was saying: sometimes, my mind just continues as it was before this relationship: if I meet a nice guy, someone I have an instant click with (and then I meen on a friendship-level), I'll just start flirting. Sometimes I'll notice it, sometimes I won't. Not that I want to date him, not that I want to cheat, not that I'm looking for an affair, it's just, I think it's in my genes or something. Apparently my mind doesn't get the fact that it can stop looking for boyfriends and can continue looking for friends.

As I was talking to my collegues today, I noticed I sometimes miss my single, or my before-married self. I couldn't be happier with my life, I absolutely love my husband and adore my son (he ís ever so cute you know), but when I heard them talking today, it was weird. One of them is on that crucial phase in the relationship: Planning To Move In Together. The other one is single, another one was talking about how he was going to name his future son, another one was talking about (pardon my french :p) how he was planning to score this weekend ;-)))))

It's strange to realise: all of these people are older than me, at least 5-8 years, but on that level, I'm way ahead of them. And on moments like this: it makes me feel really old!