Hah, a treat!!

Look at what I'll be treating myself to tomorrow...
My mother-in-law had a burglar last week, who took her phone amongst other things.
Being an ex-Belcompany-member, my knowledge & passion of mobile phones is very big, as is my collection of 'em :-s
So, I'll be giving her one of my spare (!) ones, and giving one back to the shop in exchange for a nice discount for this baby.
Hey, I earned 400€ last weekend! :-) for once I can bragg about having cash :-)

Superheroes

I recently discovered FaceBook, and all of it's funny applications. I'd never heard of it, and in one week me & my colleagues are addicted with sending eachother online gifts, dropping elephants on eachothers heads or sharing Muppets. Apparently everything is possible.
One of the funniest options, the SuperHero patch, lets us fight eachother with superpowers. For now, I've lost all of the fights I was in, but I'm not losing hope :-)

This got me contemplating some issues. Some superhero I am: in a week's time, I've had two people dear to me who were struggling with some issues, feelings, unhappy stuff - and no matter how big my mouth is sometimes, when I see friends get totally sad about something, I lose all my superheropowers. There's only one thing worse than going through something yourself: seeing someone else go through something they can't cope with by themselves, and not being able to _do_ anything.

My dear friend-from-a-long-long-time-ago L. is thinking about leaving the BF she's been with for over 7 years. It's turned in a brother-sister situation, and as she's only 27, she feels it's time to do it now before he starts to think about marriage & kids. But how do you tell someone it's over? How do you admit to yourself that you're not going to fight anymore?
I tried to reason, follow her way of thinking, enabling her, but no matter what I did, the tears didn't go away. It's very hard for her to think about facing everybody after the decision has been made; it's not because she wants to end it, that she isn't hurting...
She was feeling supersad when I heared her on thursday, and it eats me up inside that I can't DO anything. Seeing people I love get sad makes _me_ want to cry.

Yesterday, I went to a won-der-ful party at the Noorderterras in Antwerp (70s-80s-90s, in other words: getting my groove on, dancing to the music I otherwise wouldn't admit to know, let alone know the lyrics from!!). And again, at the end of the evening, my friend was experiencing something making him supersad. And although we can normally almost read each others minds sometimes (or does that meen that we're predictable?), I found it very difficult to find a proper way to make him feel better. Besides trying to keep my mouth shut and listening to what he was feeling, I again felt very powerless...
All day today, it was on my mind, I was trying to think of something to do or say to make m feel better but - I got nothing. Damn.

...

All in all, I'd like to change the tone of this message back to a happy one since I'm still high on endorfines from yesterday's party:

Questionnaire!!!

Shamelessly stolen from D’s blog (this makes me feel like I’m in highschool again … :p): a questionnaire! Feel free to shamelessly steal it here to and post it on yours!

[one] are you gay?
hah! nope.

[two] where is your default picture taken?
my bed.

[three] are you missing someone?
ow yes.

[four] what color do you like the most?
pink!

[five] does your crush like you back?
if I knew… it wouldn’t be a crush anymore, now would it?

[six] what is your current mood?
still half asleep. it’s not even 9AM, come on!

[seven] what color underwear are you wearing?
eh… let me check (still half asleep when I got dressed, too)… black and green

[eight] what makes you happy?
people that make me smile. no matter how.

[nine] look at a picture/poster in your room, who’s on it ?
some moron callcenter chick.

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what would you?
have the courage do follow my heart in stead of my mind!

[eleven] if you could be an animal which one would it be ?
a dolphin! definately.

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
nope.

[thirteen] what did you do tonite?
tonight? IT’S NOT EVEN 9AM!!!

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
Nooooooooo don’t remind me! Something terrible from highschool

[fifteen] what is your desktop background?
boring company default blue.

[sixteen] what are you wearing?
besides the obvious (clothes!) the most fun-kay boots EVER.

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
the day before yesterday.

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
yep. what a thrill.

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
flying!

[twenty] what’s one part of the opposite sex that you find sexy?
Eyes, build, and I don’t know if it’s the same in English: cupid’s arch (the curvy part of the upper lip ;-D)

[twenty-one] what do you usually order from Starbucks? ’
a blueberry muffin and a cuppa tea

[twenty-two] what’s your biggest secret?
i’ll never tee-eeell…

[twenty-three] favorite show?
House MD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[twenty-four] is it sunny or raining?
sunny! shining in my eyes, actually.

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
yep! with a six-month-old-baby in the house… bumba has no secrets for me.

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
nothing! better hurry and make me something.

[twenty-eight] what’s your favorite animal?
dolphin (didn’t I answer this one already?)

[twenty-nine] if you could describe yourself in one word what would it be?
unbelievable

[thirty] when was the last time you received a hug?
hmmm… saturday night? sunday morning?

[thirty-one] have you ever kissed in the rain?
yes…

[thirty-two] what/who are you thinking about right now?
the kiss in the rain, duh

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
working

[thirty-four] what was the last thing to make u mad/angry?
BS with the BF!

[thirty-five] how often are you laughing?
constantly.

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
nope! thank god our building has a gardener.

[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
anything but my own!

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your crush/significant other?
eh, probably, i guess I make a complete fool of myself every time.

[thirty-nine] when was the last time you were thrilled?
last weekend

Butterfly part three

Almost forgot: a little dedication to my fave future-midlife-crisis-biker :-)

Butterfly part two

As we were joined by some of D's friends, it was for me an unexpected opportunity to find out things about him. I wasn't fishing, but as the conversation went on, I heard some interesting things that totally changed whatever image I had of him :-)))

I got home at about 4 in the morning, still not tired at all. What a difference with my alter ego who goes to bed together with The Baby at about 21h !

I told the BF that I felt like I've really missed out on some good parties these last years as he's not really one to go out and dance, but he just said: if you have someone(s) that want to take you dancing... have fun!

So, it's official:



For the moment (Blogspot doesn't have these mood-indicators I like on Myspace) I'm... puzzled. What do you do with the things you need to get off your chest but can't post on your blog? Make it into a message in a bottle and throw it away?

My overseas-friend had a similar thing on her blog: if you have very mixed emotions, if you are surprised by your own thoughts and feelings, the sensation that you dó know better but your heart tells you you want something... You need to talk about it, but you can't tell your friends or post it on our blog because of the instant judgement. But, as we say in Dutch (this might sound silly in English): where do you leave your egg??

Butterfly part one

What a strange combo of events for one saturday...

I left Antwerp around noon with my make-up-artist-collegue K-CO (lol) to drive to Nieuwpoort. We were asked to do the make-up at the Miss Coast Belgium-padget.

An hour and a half of Alcazar, Steps and Mariah Carey later (he had some "cool" CD's in the car, I can tell you that), we arrived in Nieuwpoort. If you hear the title "Miss Coast Belgium", you'd expect it to be a Miss Oostende versus Miss Blankenberghe, but no, apparently contestants from all over Belgium could enter. Strange.

Beautypadgetcontestants are all they're told to be. Too skinny, too blond, not of the most intelligent kind and very demanding. Anyway, after 3 hours of non-stop painting faces, We continued our journey back to Antwerp.

As I was going out later that night, I rushed into the appartment, threw donw my suitcase, hopped in the shower, got dressed (I'd just gotten a big load of new clothes & shoes from my shopaholic auntie, so I can say for once I was looking quite fun-kay), gave the BF a kiss and popped out again to catch a bus downtown.

From beautypadgets to Den Aalmoezenier: a cultureshock :-) The bar I used to spend my fridays & saturdays still looked the same, some minor adjustments left aside, and it was a true trip down memory lane. Even the people there were still the same, as I experienced a small encounter of the ex-flirt-kind. Strange to see that he was still exàctly the same, whereas I have been trough quite a lot of change these last 5 years.

The party starded véry slow, where D and I were the only people on the dancefloor, but ended with a nice crowd and a mix of very good and very bad music.

(to be continued)