I recently discovered FaceBook, and all of it's funny applications. I'd never heard of it, and in one week me & my colleagues are addicted with sending eachother online gifts, dropping elephants on eachothers heads or sharing Muppets. Apparently everything is possible.
One of the funniest options, the SuperHero patch, lets us fight eachother with superpowers. For now, I've lost all of the fights I was in, but I'm not losing hope :-)
This got me contemplating some issues. Some superhero I am: in a week's time, I've had two people dear to me who were struggling with some issues, feelings, unhappy stuff - and no matter how big my mouth is sometimes, when I see friends get totally sad about something, I lose all my superheropowers. There's only one thing worse than going through something yourself: seeing someone else go through something they can't cope with by themselves, and not being able to _do_ anything.
My dear friend-from-a-long-long-time-ago L. is thinking about leaving the BF she's been with for over 7 years. It's turned in a brother-sister situation, and as she's only 27, she feels it's time to do it now before he starts to think about marriage & kids. But how do you tell someone it's over? How do you admit to yourself that you're not going to fight anymore?
I tried to reason, follow her way of thinking, enabling her, but no matter what I did, the tears didn't go away. It's very hard for her to think about facing everybody after the decision has been made; it's not because she wants to end it, that she isn't hurting...
She was feeling supersad when I heared her on thursday, and it eats me up inside that I can't DO anything. Seeing people I love get sad makes _me_ want to cry.
Yesterday, I went to a won-der-ful party at the Noorderterras in Antwerp (70s-80s-90s, in other words: getting my groove on, dancing to the music I otherwise wouldn't admit to know, let alone know the lyrics from!!). And again, at the end of the evening, my friend was experiencing something making him supersad. And although we can normally almost read each others minds sometimes (or does that meen that we're predictable?), I found it very difficult to find a proper way to make him feel better. Besides trying to keep my mouth shut and listening to what he was feeling, I again felt very powerless...
All day today, it was on my mind, I was trying to think of something to do or say to make m feel better but - I got nothing. Damn.
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All in all, I'd like to change the tone of this message back to a happy one since I'm still high on endorfines from yesterday's party:
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